yeah, i arrogantly declared a promise in my previous entry, which i epically failed within the first couple of days. why? you guessed it. I'VE FORGOTTEN. lame excuse? yeah, sure, whatever. this is my life and i'm in charge of it. or am i...?

i miss college... i miss high school. *tears* i love my high school but i never wanted to go through the torture all over. which reminds me of a blog entry i recently read. very cute. haha. *shot* i don't want to admit it, but i'm obviously the embodiment of the aforementioned entity, albeit not in the same high school. in fact, i'm very sick of studying...

well, not really. i'm sick of the cookie-cutter education system, that's for sure. but despite the fact of being an out-of-school youth, i never really stopped devouring education materials, overanalyzing certain facts and constantly monitoring current events. hell, i even talk to my mentors more now, compared to when i was still in college.

weird ass brain is weird.

i am tearing myself apart with each second that passes with me feeling helpless and alone, but can't do anything about it because my disgustingly short attention span is constantly getting in the way.

see. i forgot everything else i was about to say. *pulls hair out* ugh.

since this dump has already been contaminated with my self-centric cheese, i find no other reason why i shouldn't continue doing so. meaning: i'm going to force myself to blog everyday, or even every hour, whatever it takes to flush out all my frustrations that no one bothers to listens to, anyway.

this is the reason why most of my blog entries are short, sweet and pointless. I FORGET EVERYTHING! so, bear with me if you find this completely irrelevant or otherwise incoherent.

people stop talking to me whenever i tell them i quit going to school.

the feeling of failing school is so microscopic in comparison to what i feel when people do this.

but hey! no one cares about what i feel, why should i? feeling an emotion is just a state of mind or some chemical activity. i shouldn't pay attention to them.

still, i hate myself.

notice the indecision?

i need someone to vent my frustrations with. i'm sick of mind-numbing smalltalk. i'm sick of being someone else's emotional wastebag. i want someone to do the same for me. if only wishful thinking ever actually grants wishes.

or pride opposed to timidity, for that matter.
people tell me that i don't open my mouth enough. but when i do, nobody listens. other than that, i don't know how much to reveal or how much information to ask from the person spoken to.
that area is absolutely gray to me. i need intervention.
ugh... writing rut. i don't even know the difference between objective and subjective, anymore. btw, this ends here.

blog. i've been taking this for granted again, despite the excessive stream of thoughts that have been begging me to let them out.

i think i know what has been ruining my life for years. and, there's a possibility of my life ending from that, as well.

it isn't really obvious with my current state, but i've lived a really turbulent life. so, i've decided that i'm going to write a really in-depth and intimate autobiography...

...but not today. soon.

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Review Stream madali lang. product reviews. maliit lang bayad.

Mechanical Turk depends on the difficulty nung pinapagawa yung bayad, pero mostly maliit lang.

Associated Content academic papers. mas madali sa academia research. medyo ayos bayad.

Academia Research super academic papers. di ako pwede dito kasi tinatanggap lang nila is cum laude standing. mas mababa ng onti bayad kesa AC.

Bukisa articles. kahit anong gusto mo isulat. you get paid by the amount of unique pageviews your article gets. kaya dapat medyo marketing chever para marami bumasa.

Prospect Solution academic papers. mas madali kesa AR. not sure about sa bayad.

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meron pa akong alam na iba. Ciao.com maliit bayad for product reviews. Sneakindesign sobrang baba ng bayad, 1$ for a 400 word paper, kinda not worth the effort. Yung iba hindi masyado writing related kaya di ko na sinama. sabihin nyo lang sa akin kung gusto nyo pa rin malaman. :)

WARNING: these aren't formal reviews but a cloud of brainfart. so, don't expect anything.

phantom: requiem for the phantom

bee train's new baby. Animation’s fairly pretty. just felt a bit stoic. background music's quite good, my cup of tea. ED song's done by ali project(reminds me of lulu BAAAWWW). storywise, it's my favorite generic brand of assasins-without-a-past boring philosophical emo faggotry, that i painfully endure just for the fight scenes. reminiscent of mr. and mrs. smith, except that instead of being CEOs rightaway they're at entry-level and not yet married. Zwei looks like sousuke sagara, but hotter. Ein isn't that loli, which is a plus. naturally, everyone else is very japanese despite being supposedly americans. if the animation degrade or the story gets fucked up, i won't endure it.

shang ri-la

the animation's a real hag next to the promo poster , which is a fine piece of cg art, so the animation being fugly really pissed me off. Plus! The music is total shit. the story, though, is very interesting. from what i've seen, it's a shounen(8-18? boys) series with a pink-haired loli(that isn’t baka moe! Hallelujahz!) as the protagonist, and regardless of me being anti-paedobear, I’m pro feminism. So, that’s a definite plus. However, the political premise is a bit hard to digest(i rewound it a few times before i had a grasp on what's going on. i'm that slow. sorry). the story's an interesting take on another possible outcome of the future, i've never seen going green could be so corporate and political ;3 the last fun thing to note is the impressive number of transvestites. Lol. If the plot gets hotter, I’ll continue watching this.

Eden of the east
I don’t know where to start. The plot is very fun and mysterious, but this animu is obviously character development driven given that its demographic is josei (18+ women), so yeah. The OP and ED sequences are so buttfucking awesome, they can have my babies. The OP theme song is in English (yehey~! I didn’t have to suffer reading subs while contemplating the sequence :P), not to mention vector elements and typography (I obviously ship graphic design). The ED sequence is sugoku kawaii~! *kicked by imaginary readers* it srsly is. it’s very creative and it shows that it took a lot of effort to animate, and the theme song is nice, too. even with the character design being very simplistic (same mangaka(?) with honey and clover), the animation is very smooth and fluid right down to the very accurately human mannerisms. It’s freaking amazing. They even hired American voice actors! Neat. No moar engrish. The best part is… it’s morita and hagu(honey and clover) all over again! Not only that, it’s less paedo, moar terrorism and moar nekkid!!!! KYAAAAAA~! *shot* VERDICT: A++++++++plus++plusplus+++