i've been hesitating to blog for more than a week thinking my asinine thoughts are not worth publishing online in my own journal. talk about serious esteem issues. especially for someone as self-absorbed as i am.

other than mourning the end of the two anime that i've been religiously following for the past year, which is Toradora and Soul Eater. If i don't forget it later maybe i'll try to write a series review of sort, my life pretty much remains blah. although, i've finally sorted through my bookmarks. i tried out opera. i only lasted two days, before i went back to firefox. it was pretty neat and sleek. the notes feature is very useful, but i'm more familiar with firefox.

been facing a creativity wall. i've already accepted the fact that i sucking fuck fucking suck at coedz. btw, i downloaded notepad++. although, i hardly ever use it. anyhow, i couldn't accept the fact that i don't have even the tiniest amount of artistic talent. i'm already very adept at photoshop(as far as i'm concerned), but i couldn't come up with anything worth sharing with other people. sucks so hard.

another dilemma also bothers me. i don't like how people have been spamming search engines and how google's been monopolizing advertisements. i'm the kind of person who takes down ads where they're supposed to be, such as social website profile pages, free blogs and free webpages. so, the mere thought of putting up ads on purpose for my blog and implementing search engine spam techniques or SEO sends shivers up my spines. another thing is i'm planning to share the contents of my hard drive, meaning illegal media products. i strongly believe that the internet is meant for sharing information, but i also believe that piracy undermines all the hard work of the creators put into making a certain product. most of which, earns their living through their creations people share illegally. i'm also aware that some of the people involved in producing original content are simply money-grubbers out to steal a piece from the profit pie, and some actually produce content not worth the price they sold it, which is equivalent to greed and corruption. i also hate the fact that some websites are putting up fences by limiting their sites within their own countries, which is stupid. it defeats the purpose of having a website on the internet. and everyone uses proxy servers and dynamic ips anyway, so their efforts are meaningless. i didn't even know that my isp changes my ip every several days, until i decided to mask it sometime ago. lol.